My birthday is next Monday. My party is Saturday night. I'm excited and reflective. A lot has been going on at work. Morale is at an all time low. People are ready to go. My boss revealed to me she knows I'm looking for another job. I was like "duh...you are laying off, just told me our budget was cut and you've laid two people off..I'd be stupid not to be looking." Here's why YOU should be worried when people like ME get laid off. I'm there to help people like YOU when you get laid off. When the people who are there in place to help you when you are going through hard times aren't there..you are in store for some harder times. I told my boss that I have no desire to take on additional job duties AND she's talking possible paycut...?? Hell to the naw. No thank you. I did the extra work when Brenda left. But two more people..I just can't see it. I'm a team player but at what point do you tell the team "fuck you..."? I don't need this grief. And to top it off, there is a general feeling that the college could care less about those of us at my job..and it's because they don't care..it has been revealed.

But believe it or not, this is not all that big a deal to me. Deciding to leave weeks ago has freed me. Mentally I'm cool. I've been working out like no one's business. And the dress I got for Saturdays' birthday party has to be returned because it doesn't fit..it's too big. That surprised me and felt a little weird. I've been enjoying the hell out of the coed gym. So many good looking men...damn. Yes, I'm happily married but not blind.

I had a weird dream about Corey here from the Spill. It was weird. Not sexual...but it was about his success...he was very successful in this dream and I was interviewing him. It was a fun interview. I hope it happens because it means Corey will be big and I will be doing what I want to be doing..interviewing.